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last night i relistened to pinkpantheress’s “to hell with it” for the first time in a few years and OMG. i forgot how much i absolutely love this album. it has a sort of sad, dreamy, bedroom pop sound to it. the vocals are sooo pretty—pinkpantheress just has an amazing voice—and the melody is so addictive. on top of that, the little embellishments throughout the songs add so much personality. this album came out in 2021, and to me it holds so much nostalgia for that era of being 13-14, sitting in my bedroom, bored, lonely, just listening to music & staring at the ceiling. pain is the first song in the album and i remember looping it over and over the first time that i heard it and being so sad that it wasn't longer! it's a little quiet, cute, & melancholy, just like the rest of the album.

when i first listened to this album, passion quickly became my favorite. as a moody, depressed middle schooler, the line “the teachers always called it a shame / they say i don’t have passion the same / as i did a few years before / they don’t see the light there anymore” obviously stuck out to me, even though i continued to get straight a’s and never complain about school lol. but it really defined my growing disillusionment and boredom with the world, especially when the line between “sad, lonely, overdramatic preteen hormones” got blurred with “global pandemic, widespread social isolation, and dramatic political upheaval.” anyway, music was a really big escape for me during that time and this song in particular was something i really resonated with.

now, however, i find myself really drawn to nineteen, which i don’t think i really paid much mind to when i was younger. the way she sings “i wasn’t meant to be / this bored at nineteen” is so satisfying to me. but i think this song really captures the disconnected, lonely, and bored-with-the-world feelings that i heavily resonate with, no matter my age or stage of life. however, despite all of the depressing words im using to describe this album, it really conveys more of a peaceful solitude, with catchy lyrics/melodies that you can hum along to in your room.

and finally, i have to give a shout out to just for me. its so pretty & catchy. you’ve probably heard it before, since it’s pretty popular, but listen to it again. its so good. plus, i also love this midwest emo cover that kiss the scientist did a few months ago: https://youtu.be/hR_c-YlEcpM?si=-02Ol7Iq1ue9BWrr

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